And so it continues, once a victim always a victim.
I guess this time I actually have a choice to stand up for myself, I am no longer a powerless 5 year old. But I still feel that way.
If I could believe, really believe the things that others do, believe that I am a good person, then maybe I could stand up for myself.
I have to do something, otherwise this will keep happening. I’m tired of just surviving, just managing.
I don’t want to be a victim anymore.
But right now I am too frightened to stand up for myself.