Today is difficult, there is so much going on, so much uncertainty. I am not in control of what is happening, to myself or to others and I am really struggling.
It’s also Time to Talk day – and I feel a degree of guilt for not coming clean about my mental health struggles with those who work with me, I think we are all struggling, but no one will say anything, it’s a sign of weakness and right now weakness is not tolerated.
As a leader and manager I wonder if I bear some responsibility for that culture, after all I cannot tolerate what I see as my own weakness in this, though I do see it differently when others are struggling.
The next months are going to be tough, I don’t know if I am up to handling it.
As much as I hate to admit it, it really is too much just now.