My feelings are weighing heavy today. They are so loud in my head.  They are bad today. They make me want to hurt myself.  I try not to do that anymore though. 

My therapist said he was here for my feelings, he said I am split inside. But I just want my feelings to go away. Life would be easier without them, though I know that is not possible.

I know that I don’t want to be like this anymore, that I don’t want to feel like this anymore. I just need to know what is wrong with me, to know what I should have done to change what happened, and then I can fix it so I’m not wrong anymore.


4 thoughts on “Feelings

  1. you are not wrong. You are very right to acknowledge the bad, to feel what you are feeling. even on the shitty days. You are working through it, looking for help. That is not wrong. You are strong. You are fighting. Big hugs to you. take care, my dear

  2. maggiejay64 says:

    If I had figured out away not to have feelings I would share it with you. Apparently I have them whether I like them or not. Plus when I tried not to have any I lost the good feelings too. Eventually I made peace with having feelings. It does get easier.

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