It’s been a difficult few days -but I got through it, as ever somehow I’m always ok, I just wish I could be ok without getting so very anxious all the time.
The weather today – cold with heavy rain – made curling up on the sofa watching movies and reading the activity of choice.
The rest probably did me good, it’s not often I allow myself to rest but the stress of the last weeks has taken it’s toll in the form of a persistent headache and the damp has brought with it an arthritis flare up.
Reflecting on the last few weeks I find myself thinking that I did ok, not perfectly, but ok. I think perhaps the reality of my past is clearer to me now that I know others saw it too. I wonder if this is another step on the road to acceptance, of my past, of my feelings, and maybe even of myself.
I’m hopeful that the next few days will be reasonably anxiety free. I have a new project to think about and for the first time for a while I’m excited about the possibilities for the future.
Perhaps I should take the opportunity to practice being nice to myself for a change, after all today has been a good start I think.