I have a job interview, next week!
Been looking for a while, not been that happy at work, love my job, love the peeps I work with, many of them are like family. It’s just that there is lots of ‘stuff round the edges’ that has been getting me down.
Aside from the obvious anxiety – interviews are stressful, that’s just how it is, I feel a bit unsettled. Yes I agreed with my therapist and others that I needed to find something new, but I was really only talking theory, but this actually might be it, it would be great, fun to do and really playing to my strengths and my passion.
But – this is the point where I have to figure out if I want it, because otherwise I will sabotage myself by worrying about change and new things…..and then what if I decide I do want it, and don’t get it, what then……
I tell people I’m pragmatic about these things, that I know my strengths, and if a company doesn’t want me then that’s ok, I’m just not what they want, it’s not about me, but this one is different, I could do this, and do it well, I would fit, but could I bear the rejection if they choose someone else?
And then there are the people that know, unusually for me, I’ve told a fair few people about this job, that’s one of the ways I know it’s right for me, I’m excited by it, but then if I don’t get it, they will all know, my narcissistic side, is worried about the humiliation of failure…..
It seems a leap of faith is required….