Been a wobbly few weeks, feeling destabilised, maybe due to a few too many changes in my usual routine.
I have been in a very bad mood for the last few days but I am feeling better finally, maybe clearing the decks at work has helped a bit.
In the mean time, I noticed a small change, first a moment, when I was clear that I had had enough of trying to be strong, to make out like I am ok, and then for a very brief, very clear moment, I knew that I needed to tell someone everything and I knew that it would be safe.
It’s gone now, but I am left with a very small but determined voice inside my head that keeps telling the other voices to be quiet.
The truth is I am terrified of silence, of what might be there, but this voice is clear – silence is what is needed.