The big freeze is here, snow on the ground and still coming down. I find myself feeling somewhat frozen today, it’s been a down kind of weekend and I think I’m fed up with feeling, this is different from the numbing avoidance of before though, it’s more of a deep emptiness, a void.

I know I need to get angry, I’m not really in touch with my anger, sadness I can handle – which in itself is progress I guess, though crying is still unwelcome, but anger frightens me, both in others and my own.

I had a few angry days last week, maybe I have squashed it again, funny that ‘ a void’ is close to ‘avoid’ so maybe this is a new way to avoid the angries, I just don’t know………


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